define procrastination

Procrastinating , again.
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(French) see Procrastination, the meaning is the same in French and Englishwww.nationmaster.com/encyclopedia/Thief-of-Time
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to put off intentionally and habitually.thelifeprescription.com/glossary.html
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the act of procrastinating; putting off or delaying or deferring an action to a later time
dilatoriness: slowness as a consequence of not getting around to it wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
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Procrastination is a type of behaviour which is characterised by deferment of actions or tasks to a later time. Psychologists often cite procrastination as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Procrastination
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The act of postponing, delaying or putting off, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness en.wiktionary.org/wiki/procrastination
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I've been putting off posting for many good reasons (at least in my mind they are good reasons) but it just boils down to procrastination.

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If you look up the word in the dictionary you would find my picture.

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Over the years I've joked that the first initial in my name could either stand for procrastination, pessimist or my favorite perfectionist. Actually my first husband came up with the procrastination and pessimist when we were watching the newlywed game on tv. The question was what two words describe your wife using her initials. Mine at the time were P & P. I added perfectionist years later after my mother gave me book on how to become more organized (hint, hint, wink, wink). There was a line that said sometimes people who are perfectionists will put off starting new projects because in their minds if they do not have enough time to do it right so they won't do it at all.

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Procrastinating Perfectionist

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I always liked that way that sounded.

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For too long it's been my motto.

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Time to make a change.

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21 days to break a habit.

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I guess this is as good a time as any to see if that's true.

birthday wrap up

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All in all a nice day, as I said before I woke up to a large purple bday message from Carly on the bathroom mirror.

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Made me smile. :)

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While I was at work my brother left me bday greetings on my cell phone.

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Made me smile. :)

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When I got home from work, Dave had moved his car but wouldn't tell me why. Later he came in my room and made me guess which hand. He had made me bday cake.

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Made me smile. :) (Cake makes me smile pretty big)

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Later while checking missed messages I found a message from Em singing happy bday.

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Also made me smile. :)

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If I smile anymore my face is going to hurt.

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But it's a very good hurt.

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being someone's mom isn't a bad thing

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This is about something that's been tumbling around in my mind for a few weeks now and while I might not have an answer or ever have one maybe talking about it might make it's path less erratic and easier to deal with.

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Today I turned 49. While I don't feel as old as that number implies I do understand that I am on the backside of my lifespan. I have come to the realization that I have never been alone in my life. I do many things things by myself. I have no problem eating in a restaurant alone. I have no problem going shopping, to a movie, I really can't think of anything that I would have a problem with. I do sometimes hesitate going somewhere for the first time but I can get over that pretty well. What I'm talking about is I went from being someone's daughter to someone's wife and then someone's mom. Even when trying to come up with a name for this blog I couldn't come up with something that said something more unique about myself. I've told myself that I picked that name because I am very proud of what my children have done and it was a way to link myself to them. And I think that still holds true. But it might be time to try to be myself for myself.

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This is first time in my entire life that I have not had to worry about anyone else. I don't have to tell anyone where I'm going or if I'm going to be late. I don't have to worry if there's food cooked, clean towels, lunch money, picking someone up from a dance, asking permission to go out with friends, any number of things you don't think about doing because it might affect someone else. Living in this house with Carly has been great. She wasn't around much at first not even sleeping here. She has given me space. She has been very good about being "my roommate". I've even noticed she introduces me to her friends as this is my roommate Phyllis not this is my mom Phyllis. But not leaving me so alone that I feel overwhelmed.

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Maybe I'm making too much out of this in my head. Being someone's mom is not a bad thing. I just have to admit to myself it's not all I am and have fun finding out who else I might be.

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And be glad I have three special people to share my adventure with.

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birthday

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Today is my birthday. It looks to be a good day. I slept later than usual and when I finally got up Carly had left a very "large" happy bday message on the bathroom mirror. Made me smile.

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Birthdays have never bothered me. I have never been ashamed of how old I am. Part of it might be that for the most part people don't believe how old I am. As I get older I don't get that reaction as often but it's still there. I always joke that I've earned this gray hair and am proud of it.

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This birthday looks to be a good one. This will be the first in a very long time that all three of my children are within hugging distance.

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That's a nice thought. Hugs. Lots of hugs.

makes you think

Does anyone else find it odd that both Emily and Carly both crocheted hats at the same time?





I've always thought that great minds think alike. I guess this might prove it.

stardust

I was watching a program on public television last night about physics. At the end one of the physicists said that when a star dies the planets and everything on them is formed from the resulting matter.

That means we are all created out of stardust.

So does anyone know where we can get bumper stickers that read "honk if you believe in stardust"?

new office

Well, is seems it's time to explain the title of this blog. One of my favorite things my whole life is to people watch. I can't explain it, to me it's very entertaining and I never get tired of it.

So, that said the people I have been watching the last two days is the girl I share an office with and another girl who shares another office with some part time guy I haven't met yet. I'm not sure what they do. The one in my office has nameplate on the door and it says administrative assistant. Isn't that pc for secretary?

Well, apparently the IT guy has been stuck in a closet with the servers for who knows how long so he's getting the office I'm in. Myself, the administrative assistant, the other girl and the guy I haven't met are getting new cubicles in this big roomy room much closer to the bathrooms and the break room. The company is going all out. We got to pick out colors and they bought art for the walls. We're getting new chairs and well, everything. The cubicles are very large and are set up to be very private. Very nice with lots of work surface, wall space and shelves and extra drawers.

Now, myself I'm thrilled but then if they asked me to work outside in the parking lot I'd say ok. I mean, they gave me a job, then moved me to what I consider the best position ever, give me free cable and pay me on top. I skip to and from work every day. But are the others happy? Well hell no they're not and here's why I think it's so entertaining.

They are upset because they didn't get to pick which cubicle they have to sit in! They say they fell like they're in kindergarten again. If you ask me they're acting like they are. Well not kindergarten maybe more like preteen. I keep seeing them huddled together "discussing" the seating. I'm also surprised there's not a "cow trail" down the center of the hallway where they keep going back and forth. I even overheard one imply that she might have to find a new job. After lunch today they informed me which side they were going to sit at and that I could "have" my assigned spot. Very amusing. Can't wait to see what happens tomorrow. We're supposed to be able to move on Thursday.

When I was showed my spot it was explained to me where and why everyone would sit.

Everything logical and thought out.

But then I might be a little biased, I got the best spot.